Ahead lies the great light that...

[Anastasia]

"I...don't know what to say," Ilsenine finally says at last. "No, I do. Why did you make this choice and go through with it, Moore?"

[Nephrite]

"That is a complicated question." Moore says, his eyes closed for a moment.

He opens them a few seconds later. "When we saved Lifasa, I learned about the power of Hope. It was a... seed that grew within me. I decided to pursue the lessons and secrets of Celestia in order to embody that Hope, so I can see Creation grow and prosper and save people who are suffering."

[Anastasia]

Ilsenine sits down heavy. "So thus you go," she says, finally.

[Nephrite]

Moore has little to offer except a smile. "If I can do something to prevent another Lifasa from falling, then I will do so. I can't blame you at all if this is something you are against, and I realize it's... a lot. I will find a way to make things work if you wish it; I needn't know right now."

He takes in a breath. "I've long wondered how everyone else manages... Seira and Amaryl, Titania and Oberon..."

[Anastasia]

"How is it?" Tepen asks as Ilsenine is silent, "How difficult is it for you?"

[Nephrite]

"Honestly?" Moore begins, "It's like I can do all sorts of things I never knew I could. It comes incredibly naturally. I don't know if that's simply the secrets of Celestia at work or if all divinities go through this same sort of thing."

[Anastasia]

"Tell me more," Tepen says, "Like it comes with its own instincts, akin to how a newly risen vampire knows to suck blood, or a newly changed half fire elemental seeks out flame?"

[Nephrite]

Moore nods. "Hm... no, I don't think I've found anything instinctual, at least not yet. It's simply... anything that I try and do with my newfound divine will, it's as easy as if I'd always been able to do it, and just never knew I could. When I first... awoke, as it were, it was like everything around me was more ... alive than it had been ever before. As if my previous experience was seen through a haze, and everything was just that much clearer and more... there. Even though I can perfectly remember everything from before and know that isn't... -really- the case, you know?"

[Anastasia]

"Yet it feels like it is? As if you've been changed retroactively?" Tepen suggests.

[Nephrite]

Moore hums once as he thinks back -- something like the battle for Lifasa itself, for example, can he remember more details about all of that then he could've before?

[Anastasia]

Your memory is clearer - you remember more, or simply are now not subject to time's gentle erosion of memories, perhaps.

[Nephrite]

Moore nods. "Yes, it's like everything is retroactively just clearer. I wonder if..."

He takes a breath and tries to remember the conversation he once had with Sylvie and Baleruk...

http://www.soulriders.net/forum/index.php/topic,103953.msg1090733.html#msg1090733 This conversation, for reference. He's basically wondering if now he can 'hear' what Baleruk / Sylvie said from back then.

[Anastasia]

Didn't you already recall this, or am I getting another bit mixed up?

[Nephrite]

The only thing he ever actually 'remembered' from before was the conversation with Elena about Cantasa Alexandria. He never thought about trying to remember this.

[Anastasia]

You recall it now - it is about Cantasa Alexandria, as you can imagine from the discussion after. Just a simple verification if you can recall it or not, and you could not at the time.