It's a road that never ends (Jaela)

[Corwin]

"Ah, that's actually alright, I think. Compared to what Ellese usually hears my randomness might be relaxing?" Jaela muses, tilting her head. "Still, if you think so...."

She trails off, following the thought she originally had. There's something important about that city on an otherwise unassuming Prime. Not just in the support to the Crusade they'd received, or the way it seems to produce powerful people. She doesn't like to use terms like destiny, but given their recent excursion to Elysium maybe it fits here. In that case, wouldn't it be suitable for their task? If that city could forge goddesses, perhaps an old-fashioned pilgrimage could help Ellese reimagine herself?

And it might be something Jaela herself could use, when it comes to that. But the important thing is whether the Triune thinks it a good idea, or guides their efforts elsewhere.

[Anastasia]

Are you just praying or are you casting a divination here?

[Corwin]

Half-prayer, half-meditation. If the Triune thinks the idea has merit, maybe she'll suggest what needs to be done. If not, a better idea might appear.

[Anastasia]

Make a Wisdom check.

[Corwin]

7:23 PM <Rin> roll 1d20+9
7:23 PM <Kobot> Rin rolled 1d20+9 --> [ 1d20=16 ]{25}

[Anastasia]

> roll 1d20+4 Mei aiding
<Kobot> Kotono rolled 1d20+4 Mei aiding --> [ 1d20=11 ]{15}

Normally not a check you can aid on, but circumstances.

Jaela drifts into prayer and meditation, the line between them blurry. She's warm from Mei's hug, drifting into deeper thought. How long she's under she doesn't know, just drifting along in a state of half awareness. It turns into a dream, of a few small people facing a massive, lumbering beast of shadow. It thrashes about, a grotesque thing that the small warriors constantly battle. They don't ever stop, slowly whittling away at it and pressing it back, cracks forming over its body -

Jaela slowly rises from that vision. She's resting against Mei, her arms wrapped around Jaela. Her eyes are closed as well. Ellese is in a similar state, and on a glance you'd imagine she might be deep in meditation or trancing. If she still does, with the state she's in who knows?

[Corwin]

Her very first thought upon returning to the waking world is that the vision might be a suggestion, but a few moments later Jaela shakes it away with the last true remnants of dream. It surely shows Ellese's problems. Everyone's problems, really, except for a few saints, she supposes. Does it really matter if you see them as a myriad of tiny voices or one large amorphous whole? The important thing is to work at it, and keep going.

But then Jaela tilts her head in thought. "Did you have the same vision?" she asks Mei quietly. "Shadow beast, several people whittling it down to nothing?" She waits for a response, before adding, "Do you think we should stick with pure meditation over my idea to go off to Balmuria?"

[Anastasia]

Mei slowly nods and then looks to Ellese, wavering her hand.

[Corwin]

Jaela nods slightly. "Let's wait for Ellese to return as well," she agrees with the sentiment, remaining there in a quiet show of support.

[Anastasia]

Mei stays like that, comfortable as the two wait. Ellese stirs slowly after about a half hour, "Mm." she murmurs, wiping her eyes clear. "Jaela?" she looks over and sees the two, "...ah. That was not entirely unpleasant."

[Corwin]

"Hey, welcome back!" Jaela greets her cheerfully. "The most important thing here is not to have expectations. I remember it went really well for me when I meditated, and it felt like I was on the cusp of a breakthrough, but then I got stalled for almost a week and head constant headaches. But so long as we keep at it, we'll make it work."

[Anastasia]

"I think so." Ellese says, "I do feel a little better now."

[Corwin]

"Glad to hear it!" No time like the present, and so she says, "I'll be there for you whenever you need to, and Priest and Mei are good for it. Same with my family. I got the impression it's best to meditate when someone is with you, and maybe a more than just one person. That said, want to take a field trip to a Prime? I thought it could make a nice pilgrimage for us for a couple days."

[Anastasia]

"Do we have time before the assault on Lixer?" Ellese asks quietly, "I want to take part in that."

[Corwin]

"I think we do, but we can wait for after to be on the safe side," Jaela readily agrees. "And on the plus side, we could focus some more on meditation if you want to. You'd know best if you're getting exhausted and want a break."